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Right now, I have a major fear which is based in reality: drowning. We live on a boat right now, and I'm so terrified at times that someone will fall overboard. I wake up in a panic at 3am, worried that one of our kids is going to fall into the water when they get up to use the marina restroom in the middle of the night. But the main fear is that I am not cut out for this life. Sometimes I want to give up trying to learn about boating and go back to living on shore, but we don't have any income right now. My current fear is that we'll freeze because we won't have shore power to run our heater. Poverty and the fear of failure are difficult to overcome.
I've had a few phobias, though, which I finally worked through because I was tired of compensating for them. For example, I had a fear of down escalators. I'd freeze and panic, and be unable to make myself step onto them. However, as a parent, I couldn't keep skipping them each time we went to the mall or I had to take the subway. So I compensated by holding onto the right handhold and stepping sideways onto the first step. It turned out that I had vertigo; once I knew that there was a reason for feeling so disoriented, the fear lessened. Stepping off the boat onto docks or into dinghies falls under the same category. The same goes for my fear of crossing bridges and riding a bike. I hated feeling off-balance and disoriented. I still don't ride bikes, but I'm going to have to relearn.
Right now, I have a major fear which is based in reality: drowning. We live on a boat right now, and I'm so terrified at times that someone will fall overboard. I wake up in a panic at 3am, worried that one of our kids is going to fall into the water when they get up to use the marina restroom in the middle of the night. But the main fear is that I am not cut out for this life. Sometimes I want to give up trying to learn about boating and go back to living on shore, but we don't have any income right now. My current fear is that we'll freeze because we won't have shore power to run our heater. Poverty and the fear of failure are difficult to overcome.
I've had a few phobias, though, which I finally worked through because I was tired of compensating for them. For example, I had a fear of down escalators. I'd freeze and panic, and be unable to make myself step onto them. However, as a parent, I couldn't keep skipping them each time we went to the mall or I had to take the subway. So I compensated by holding onto the right handhold and stepping sideways onto the first step. It turned out that I had vertigo; once I knew that there was a reason for feeling so disoriented, the fear lessened. Stepping off the boat onto docks or into dinghies falls under the same category. The same goes for my fear of crossing bridges and riding a bike. I hated feeling off-balance and disoriented. I still don't ride bikes, but I'm going to have to relearn.
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Date: 2011-01-22 07:38 pm (UTC)From: (Anonymous)